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March 7, 2025

Return of the King (archetype)

In this episode, I explore the King archetype as revealed through my mythic-expressive writing practice, highlighting my realization of needing to reclaim inner leadership. I discuss reframing internal adversaries as constructive opponents and the empowering role of mythic imagination. Join me as I reconnect with the fragments of my psyche...

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March 6, 2025

Good Day to Die Reflection

Yesterday, I had a conversation with a friend about the unrelenting passage of time and how, as we age, we often perceive ourselves as running out of time, a sentiment that is actually true. The conversation reminded me of the saying, “Today is a good day to die.” This phrase...

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March 4, 2025

Neural Alchemy: The Art of Self-Remixing

We’ve been sold a lie about change. They tell us it’s effort, discipline, a slow climb toward “betterment.” They frame transformation as incremental self-improvement, as though the mind were a machine that needs regular maintenance, tightening bolts, fine-tuning gears. But this metaphor is outdated, a relic of industrial logic imposed...

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March 3, 2025

If you want to improve yourself, get rid of yourself first

Christopher Hyatt’s statement—“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF GET RID OF YOURSELF FIRST”—carries the raw, confrontational energy of radical transformation. At first glance, it seems paradoxical: how can self-improvement begin with self-erasure? But Hyatt, isn’t speaking in riddles—he’s pointing to something fundamental about identity, limitation, and personal power. The Illusion...

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February 27, 2025

Christopher Hyatt Unfiltered: A Journey into Power, Control, and the Mind

Christopher S. Hyatt was never one for pleasantries. In this unedited interview, we get Hyatt raw—opinionated, cynical, brilliant, and utterly unwilling to sugarcoat his worldview. It’s a rare artifact of a man who positioned himself at the crossroads of psychology, magick, and extreme individualism. This conversation is less an interview...

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February 26, 2025

society hates the price of its own progress

There’s a pattern that repeats itself throughout history: society craves innovation, yet when it arrives, we recoil from its consequences. We want progress—until we see the price tag. I’ve been thinking about this a lot in the context of generative AI, particularly large language models like ChatGPT. The sheer amount...

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February 24, 2025

staring into the eye of the Buddha

There are moments that don’t fit neatly into language. Experiences that slip through the cracks of meaning, resisting all attempts to pin them down. I had one of those moments recently—a moment that stretched me between everything and nothing, like standing at the edge of an infinite precipice, staring into...

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February 22, 2025

saving the soul of mankind

Terence McKenna once said, “The artist’s task is to save the soul of mankind.” A bold claim, maybe even grandiose, but is it true? And if so, how does an artist—whether a writer, painter, musician, or digital creator—actually go about saving something as vast and abstract as the soul of...

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February 21, 2025

The Subconscious as a Playground

Most people think of the subconscious as a hidden, unknowable force—but what if, instead of treating it like a locked vault, you saw it as a playground? In this episode, we explore how the subconscious isn’t just passively storing memories and instincts—it’s actively shaping your reality. The key to transformation isn’t...

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February 20, 2025

Awakening the Daimon: A Guide to Inner Power

There’s an ancient presence that’s been calling to you for as long as you can remember. It’s not a god, not a muse, not a guardian angel, yet it carries whispers of all three. The Greeks called it the daimon, the Romans named it genius, and throughout history, mystics, poets,...

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February 19, 2025

The Existential Chaos Magician

Seeing Through the Illusion There comes a moment of clarity, a crack in the illusion if you will, where everything you’ve been taught about life, society, and meaning suddenly seems arbitrary. The rules, the expectations, the moral codes, the very structure of reality as dictated by authority—it’s all a game,...

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February 18, 2025

seeing the shapes of things

episode summary In this episode, I take you along for an afternoon walk as I explore a phrase that caught my attention: “Learn to see the shapes of things rather than the stories.” What does it mean to perceive reality without immediately turning it into a narrative? How do we...

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February 17, 2025

soulcruzer theme song

I’ve been experiementing with AI-generated music, and the results have been pretty cool for what it is. The level of quality you can get from AI-powered music tools is mind-blowing. Lately, I’ve been playing with Suno and Riffusion, two platforms that make the process incredibly easy. Suno operates on a...

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February 16, 2025

wake up before it’s too late

It’s Sunday evening. The weekend is winding down, and for most of us, the gravity of another Monday is setting in. A slow, creeping resignation. The ritual continues: set the alarms, prep for the workweek, slip into the machinery of modern life without much resistance. We tell ourselves we’re free,...

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February 14, 2025

down the rabbit hole with Fallen Horses, by Smash Mouth

My down-the-rabbit-hole excursion today is “Fallen Horses” by Smash Mouth. They’re a band usually associated with high-energy feel-good anthems. But, in this tune, they offer something more introspective. The song drifts through the in-between spaces where longing, death, and the search for transcendence converge. Underneath the deceptively simple lyrics lies...

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February 14, 2025

Change Magick – Episode 2: Belief as a Tool

Episode Summary:What if belief wasn’t something you had to “find” or “wait for”—but something you could shape, install, and wield? In this episode, we explore one of the foundational principles of Change Magick: belief as a tool.

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February 12, 2025

thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes Episode Overview Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I’m recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that’s just part of...

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February 11, 2025

on craft, care, and the art of restoration

There’s something almost monastic about this mechanic’s workshop. The tools arranged like sacred relics, the quiet rituals of tuning an engine, the slow work of bringing something worn and rusted back to life. To an outsider, it might look like simple labour—just a man fixing bikes. But to those who...

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