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March 16, 2026

The Story You Call Yourself

You have never met yourself. Not directly. What you have met is a story about yourself, told so many times and with such conviction that it started to feel like the ground you stand on rather than the narrative you constructed to explain where you are standing. This is not...

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March 14, 2026

The Mixtape Series Is Back (Episode 397)

The Soulcruzer Mixtape Series is back, because some things are worth coming back to! If you’ve been here a while, you’ll know what this is. If you’re new, here’s the short version: it’s a curated set of songs, talked through, with a little context around why they matter and why...

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March 12, 2026

the slow craft of living your own life

a meditation how’s your life right now? not the version you present online. not the edited highlight reel. the actual texture of it. the way your days feel when you wake up in the morning. the tone of your conversations. the direction your energy naturally flows. because whether you notice...

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March 6, 2026

Don’t Go Full Kurtz

On staying visible while going deep. The temptation to disappear into the work, the gold rush noise, and why the explorer who transmits is more valuable than the one who goes silent in the jungle.

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March 1, 2026

Pluribus: Why the Man in the Hot Tub Has the Better Argument

Caution: This post contains spoilers. The show tells you who the hero is before the first episode ends. Carol Sturka, a curmudgeonly novelist living in Albuquerque, wakes up to find that nearly every human being on Earth has been absorbed into a peaceful, cooperative hive mind following the arrival of...

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February 20, 2026

The Retrofit Trap (and What AI-First Actually Means)

Most people encounter a new technology and immediately ask the wrong question: How do I use this to do what I already do, but faster? It’s understandable. It’s also a dead end. I call it the retrofit trap. You take an entirely new category of capability and bolt it onto...

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February 17, 2026

The Feedback Loop of Life

There is a model hiding inside every moment you have ever course-corrected, changed your mind, or walked out of a room sensing something had shifted. It is not a philosophy. It is not a metaphor. It is a working system, and once you see it, you cannot unsee it. The...

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February 9, 2026

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and...

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February 8, 2026

What Are We Becoming?

This one started with me sitting down in the studio and noticing a pattern that’s been floating around the last couple of days. Everywhere I turn, people are talking about where we’re going as human beings, what we’re becoming, and how all this change is messing with our sense of...

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February 3, 2026

Seeing the Fnords in the Machine

I just read Michael Rock’s essay “If You Don’t See the Fnord it Can’t Eat You” and it clarified something I’ve been circling around for months. Rock traces the paranoid history of subliminal messaging from Robert Anton Wilson’s Discordian chaos to Madison Avenue’s mind control fantasies. The fnord1 is typography...

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February 2, 2026

Your Timeline is a Sixth-Generation Forest Fire

Reading Soundtrack: The Prodigy — Firestarter Smoke in the Silicon Close your eyes and feel the laptop on your thighs. It isn’t just warm: it is radiating. That heat is the friction of a billion data points rubbing together in a space too small to hold them. Outside, the world...

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January 29, 2026

Nobody’s Coming to Save You

The Uncomfortable Core of Self-Transformation The Seductive Misreading Someone commented on one of my posts the other day, drawing a parallel between the Left Hand Path and Nietzsche’s philosophy. They talked about the Übermensch, about self-deification, about becoming superior. They weren’t wrong about the surface similarities. Both traditions do emphasize...

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January 26, 2026

The Spreader Part II

This is part II of The Spreader, a psychological horror/speculative fiction story I started at the tail end of last year.  If you haven’t read part one, here’s the link. I decided to use an interactive format for Part II.  Spreader Part 2 – Interactive E-Book Spreader Part 2 An...

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January 23, 2026

Self-Authorship: A Meditation on Conscious Creation

Jordan Peterson on self-authorship: “Constructing the narrative of your life is a way to determine what to strive for and what to avoid…” There exists a peculiar condition in human consciousness where we experience ourselves as both the one living and the one observing what is lived. We are simultaneously...

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January 21, 2026

Your World is a Projection of Your State of Awareness

Think about this: your reality isn’t happening TO you. It’s happening THROUGH you. Your state of awareness operates like a projector beam. The world you experience is whatever appears on the screen of perception. Most people assume the screen is the problem. They argue with the images, rearrange the furniture...

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