Soulcruzer

Hi, I'm Clay Lowe. I'm a narrative alchemist working at the intersection of depth psychology, chaos magick, alchemy, mythic imagination, and myth-making in the AI age. I treat stories as spiritual technology, the code we use to construct reality. I design games and tools, and create practices for inner transformation and self-mastery.
February 9, 2026

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and...

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February 8, 2026

What Are We Becoming?

This one started with me sitting down in the studio and noticing a pattern that’s been floating around the last couple of days. Everywhere I turn, people are talking about where we’re going as human beings, what we’re becoming, and how all this change is messing with our sense of...

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February 3, 2026

Seeing the Fnords in the Machine

I just read Michael Rock’s essay “If You Don’t See the Fnord it Can’t Eat You” and it clarified something I’ve been circling around for months. Rock traces the paranoid history of subliminal messaging from Robert Anton Wilson’s Discordian chaos to Madison Avenue’s mind control fantasies. The fnord1 is typography...

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February 2, 2026

People think I’m repeating myself when I say …

People think I’m repeating myself when I say I’m all about Psyche and Soul. They see a linguistic loop, but I see an alchemical operation. To the dictionary, they are the same word. To the seeker, they are two different sides of the Great Work. The Alchemical Split Psyche is...

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February 2, 2026

Your Timeline is a Sixth-Generation Forest Fire

Reading Soundtrack: The Prodigy — Firestarter Smoke in the Silicon Close your eyes and feel the laptop on your thighs. It isn’t just warm: it is radiating. That heat is the friction of a billion data points rubbing together in a space too small to hold them. Outside, the world...

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January 31, 2026

There is a quietly subversive move hiding in …

There is a quietly subversive move hiding in plain sight here. This essay by Richard Beard looks like it’s arguing against AI, but the more interesting thing is that it is actually redefining what writing is. Richard Beard is not saying “humans are better writers.” He is saying that memoir...

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January 30, 2026

Find the poetry in the machine. I love …

Find the poetry in the machine. I love this line. It’s the same pattern that’s played out with every tool that threatened to “replace” human creativity. Photography was going to kill painting. Synthesizers were going to kill “real” music. Digital art was going to kill traditional media. But what actually...

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January 29, 2026

Nobody’s Coming to Save You

The Uncomfortable Core of Self-Transformation The Seductive Misreading Someone commented on one of my posts the other day, drawing a parallel between the Left Hand Path and Nietzsche’s philosophy. They talked about the Übermensch, about self-deification, about becoming superior. They weren’t wrong about the surface similarities. Both traditions do emphasize...

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January 26, 2026

The Spreader Part II

This is part II of The Spreader, a psychological horror/speculative fiction story I started at the tail end of last year.  If you haven’t read part one, here’s the link. I decided to use an interactive format for Part II.  Spreader Part 2 – Interactive E-Book Spreader Part 2 An...

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January 23, 2026

Self-Authorship: A Meditation on Conscious Creation

Jordan Peterson on self-authorship: “Constructing the narrative of your life is a way to determine what to strive for and what to avoid…” There exists a peculiar condition in human consciousness where we experience ourselves as both the one living and the one observing what is lived. We are simultaneously...

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January 22, 2026

Attention shapes experience by determining what elements of …

Attention shapes experience by determining what elements of reality become vivid and meaningful while others fade into background noise. Where you direct your focus literally constructs your lived reality, not just your memory of it but the actual texture and quality of the moment as you experience it. When you...

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January 21, 2026

Your World is a Projection of Your State of Awareness

Think about this: your reality isn’t happening TO you. It’s happening THROUGH you. Your state of awareness operates like a projector beam. The world you experience is whatever appears on the screen of perception. Most people assume the screen is the problem. They argue with the images, rearrange the furniture...

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January 20, 2026

Anxiety Has No Creative Power: Why Your Worry Loop is a Lie

Let me tell you something about anxiety that nobody seems to mention: it’s a terrible storyteller. I’ve watched anxiety operate in hundreds of minds, including my own. And here’s what I’ve learned: anxiety is fundamentally sterile. It produces nothing new. It’s a photocopier stuck on the darkest setting, churning out...

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January 19, 2026

On Blogging as Soul Technology

A response to Joan Westenberg’s “The Case for Blogging in the Ruins“ Joan Westenberg opens her case for blogging by invoking Diderot’s Encyclopédie, that 28-volume monument to organized thinking that took two decades to complete, survived two government bans, and drove its creator to periodic breakdowns. Her point was that...

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January 18, 2026

The Printing Press Made Polymaths. AI Makes Something …

The Printing Press Made Polymaths. AI Makes Something Stranger. The printing press gave us access to knowledge. AI gives us access to alien intelligence. We’re still in the “faster horse” phase – using AI to do what we already do, but quicker. Faster emails. Faster code. Faster research. But the...

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January 17, 2026

Om Malik started my morning with a post …

Om Malik started my morning with a post (almost a rant) about the forced conformity of creativity on the Internet and how algorithms are forcing creators into a grey-beige world: “What used to require shame and ostracism is now baked into the internet’s economic infrastructure. The algorithmic reality of technology...

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