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Stories | Notes | and Essays

at the cross section of narrative alchemy, imaginal psychology, chaos magick, self-development, self-authorship, meaning-making, and conscious living.

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture
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Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and

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Weekly Practice

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Contemplation

Today’s Contemplation: The Reality of What You Imagine

Right now, pause and picture something you desire. Notice how vivid it can become in your mind’s eye. Here’s the truth: you’re not fantasizing about a future possibility. You’re tuning into a reality that already exists in the infinite field of potentials. When you mentally experience something, you’re doing more

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Walking the Wyrd: A Review of Brian Bates’ Anglo-Saxon Sorcery

There’s something potent about learning magic through story. Not the sanitized, academic kind of learning where concepts get pinned to pages like dead butterflies, but the living, breathing transmission that happens when you follow a character into the dark woods and watch them stumble, fail, and finally get it. Brian

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The Gnostic Caravan Day 23: Yaldabaoth, The Cosmos

(The Ruler and the Ruled) There’s a particular recognition that arrives at the end of every genuine spiritual journey: the thing you’ve been fighting, transcending, working to overcome is itself part of the totality you’ve been seeking to understand. Not because the fight was wrong or the transcendence unnecessary, but

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Gnostic

The Gnostic Carvan Day 22: Eleleth (Judgment)

(Sagacity, the Great Angel) There’s a particular moment when perspective shifts so completely that everything you thought you understood reveals itself in entirely new context. Not because the facts changed but because you’ve risen high enough to see patterns you couldn’t perceive from ground level. Not judgment as condemnation but

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Reading the Apocryphon of John

I’m currently reading The Apocryphon of John, and if you’re into narrative alchemy, chaos magick, or treating mythology as functional technology rather than ancient fantasy, this text is essential reading. Not for historical curiosity (though that’s good too), but for operational knowledge. The Apocryphon (which just means “secret book”) is

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The Gnostic Caravan Day 21: The Invisible Spirit

(The One That Contains Everything) There’s a particular moment in spiritual seeking when all the complexity collapses, when all the distinctions dissolve, when everything you’ve been working to understand reveals itself as an aspect of a single undivided consciousness that was never actually separate from you. Not a conclusion you

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Notes

when does our self story begin?

it feel like our self story is shaped even before we are born. we don’t get to choose our parents so we inherit their circumstances and beliefs; they name us with a name that has a story embedded in it. and then they program our initial software from which we

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restarting the community efforts

I’m restarting the community pages here using BuddyPress and BBPress. If you’re not already a member of the site, you can register and create your own profile here on soulcruzer. I’ll get a group and a forum started shortly.

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Podcast

The Soulcruzer podcast…narrative alchemy in audio form. Call it an audioblog, call it broadcast signal, call it confessional mysticism.

 

One day I’m working through tarot as spiritual technology. The next, I’m exploring Nietzsche’s eternal return as lived practice, chaos magick techniques, or games as containers for transformation. Depth psychology meets the esoteric. Ancient wisdom meets the AI age. Theory becomes practice.

 

This is what narrative alchemy sounds like from the inside: raw, real, unpolished. Experiments in treating stories as code and consciousness as hackable.

If you’re here for the deep work and the edges, subscribe wherever you get your podcasts.

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Latest Games

Magus Eternal

A Solo Tarot RPG

Reality is unraveling. You are a Chaos Magician caught in an arcane war against time itself. Your rival’s forbidden ritual threatens to shatter existence. You have 13 days to master chaos, confront the abyss, and decide the fate of reality. Every card drawn rewrites destiny. Every spell cast demands sacrifice. Will you save this world, or become the architect of its undoing?

The Threshold

A Mini-Game of Narrative Alchemy

New to narrative solo RPG games? Play The Threshold. This is a short 15-minute game with huge outcomes.

 

You stand at a threshold between two rooms. Behind you is a room containing your current story—everything that brought you here. Ahead is a room holding your next chapter—unknown but calling. This game helps you cross.

Web-Book

NARRATIVE ALCHEMY CODEX

A Guide to Inner Transformation

You are living a story you did not write. Welcome to the Codex of Narrative Alchemy, a living grimoire for conscious authorship where mythology meets psychology, ancient wisdom collides with postmodern practice, and the stories shaping your life become raw material for transformation. Not a book to read, but a practice to embody. Whether you see this as magic or method, the transformation is real.

The stories running your life—about love, money, success, belonging—most of them you didn’t choose. They chose you. Narrative Alchemy teaches you to see those inherited scripts clearly, test them ruthlessly, and rewrite them toward your Authentic Purpose. This is where Jungian depth work meets post-modern magical practice. Where ancient alchemical cycles meet contemporary coaching methodology. Where you stop being a character in someone else’s story and become the author of your own.

What this is

A living grimoire for conscious authorship. Not a book to consume, but a practice to test. You’ll find methods drawn from depth psychology, chaos magic, and narrative coaching. All designed to work whether you see them as literal magic or powerful metaphor. Everything mythic becomes practical. Every abstract concept gets a concrete exercise. Every teaching includes something you can do today.

 

And this grimoire grows. When you discover something that works, you share it in circle. When enough people test a practice and refine it, it becomes part of the methodology. This isn’t one person’s system handed down like scripture, it’s collective intelligence built in the laboratory of lived experience. Individual breakthroughs become shared tools. Personal transformation becomes community wisdom.

Applied Narrative Alchemy

Most transformation work is either too mystical to be practical or too practical to be transformative. Narrative Alchemy synthesizes four streams—depth psychology, chaos magic, narrative coaching, self-development—into a secular sacred practice that honors both the mysterious and the measurable.

Narrative Alchemy

Professional methodology for forward-looking transformation. You’re not broken and don’t need fixing, you need agency, design thinking, and conscious authorship of your next chapter. This stream provides the ethical container and the future-focused orientation.

Chaos Magic

Post-modern techniques where belief is a tool, not a dogma. Results matter more than metaphysics. If a practice works, use it. If it doesn’t, discard it. This stream provides permission to experiment freely and borrow from any tradition without allegiance to any orthodoxy.

Depth Psychology

Jungian frameworks for engaging the unconscious through archetypes, shadow work, and active imagination. The psyche speaks in symbol and story. This stream provides the map for navigating the imaginal realm where transformation actually happens.

Self-Development

Eclectic, accessible practices drawn from everywhere from Stoicism to systems thinking, habit design to embodiment work. This stream keeps the work grounded in lived experience, ensuring every mystical concept has a practical application you can test today.

I

Orientation

Start here.

What Narrative Alchemy is, the principles it rests on, and how story links to Authentic Purpose—the pull beneath your surface decisions.

📖 Chapter 1: What Is Narrative Alchemy?

📖 Chapter 2: First Principles 

📖 Chapter 3: Authentic Purpose and Story 

II

The Alchemical Cycle

The four stages of transformation, applied to the story you’re living. From seeing inherited scripts to embodied sovereignty.

📖 Chapter 4: Nigredo – Seeing the Script 

→ Chapter 5: Albedo – Cleansing the Lens (coming soon)

→ Chapter 6: Citrinitas – Igniting Agency

→ Chapter 7: Rubedo – Embodiment (coming soon)

III

Tools of the Magician

Story is technology. These are the methods for wielding it. Learn them, test them, then forge your own practice.

→ Chapter 8: Storycraft Methods (coming soon)

→ Chapter 9: Journaling as Laboratory (coming soon)

→ Chapter 10: Rituals and Hyper-Sigils (coming soon)

→ Chapter 11: Dialogue and Circle (coming soon)

→ Chapter 12: Your Personal Praxis (coming soon)

IV

The Movement

Personal transformation becomes collective change. Soulcruzer as a hearth for a community of sovereign storytellers.

→ Chapter 13: Soulcruzer as Hearth (coming soon)

→ Chapter 14: Change Your Story, Change Your World (coming soon)

→ Chapter 15: Wayfinding Appendix (coming soon)

Working the Codex

This isn’t a book to read passively. It’s a grimoire to work with. Each chapter is structured to move you from insight to action because transformation happens in practice, not theory.

⚡ Signal & Why it matters

One line that names what this chapter unlocks, plus the real stakes—what changes in your actual life when you work with this material.

💡 Core Idea & Practice

The principle is explained clearly, stripped of mystification. Then there is one concrete exercise you can test immediately, either in your journal, in conversation, or in how you move through your day.

🔥 Prompts & Invitation

Five questions to explore alone or in circle. Then a clear next step—because every chapter should shift something in how you see yourself or the world.

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