Podcast

January 15, 2026

A Philosophy of As If: Useful Fictions and the Stories We Live By

I’ve been reading Hans Vaihinger’s A Philosophy of As If: A System of the Theoretical, the Practical and Religious Fictions of Mankind. I came across this book through James Hillman‘s Healing Fiction, and it’s been illuminating his concept of “useful fictions.” The Nature of Useful Fictions Here’s the core idea:...

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December 8, 2025

The Codex, the Caravan, and the Coming Year

In this episode, I step back from the whirlwind of creation and offer a full catch-up on everything happening inside the Soulcruzer universe. Advent has brought a burst of momentum, new experiments, and a deepening sense of direction for the narrative alchemy community. This episode gathers the threads, clarifies the...

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June 25, 2025

The Realm of Possibility

In this contemplative riff inspired by Michael Neill’s teaching, I explore what it means to return to the space before thought, that fertile void the Taoists speak of, where anything can grow. This piece is a reflection on presence, memory, and the quiet revolution of living from the realm of...

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June 7, 2025

the wandering way

Maybe you’re feeling behind. Like the path disappeared while you were making coffee or paying bills or just trying to keep your head above the static. Like everyone else got the memo about which direction to walk, and you were in the bathroom, missing the announcement that would have saved...

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April 17, 2025

Act III and the Cosmic Dancer

What if the third act of your life isn’t about slowing down but becoming the myth you were born to tell? Join me on a wisdom walk through memory, metaphor, and mythic insight as I unpack the tension between old worlds and new callings. Guided by mythic imagination, story, and...

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March 20, 2025

The Return of Story

For centuries, we’ve been conditioned to believe that logic is king and story is its court jester—entertaining but ultimately frivolous. From the moment we step into a classroom, we’re trained to think in bullet points, equations, and neatly categorised facts. We’re rewarded for linear reasoning and penalised for wandering too...

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March 18, 2025

The Curriculum is Not the Knowledge

📜 The Map is Not the Territory. The Curriculum is Not the Knowledge. Formal education hands us maps—structured pathways meant to guide us toward understanding. They come in the form of syllabi, textbooks, standardised tests, and approved reading lists. These maps tell us what’s “worth knowing,” what’s “important, and what’s “tested.” They are designed...

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March 7, 2025

Return of the King (archetype)

In this episode, I explore the King archetype as revealed through my mythic-expressive writing practice, highlighting my realization of needing to reclaim inner leadership. I discuss reframing internal adversaries as constructive opponents and the empowering role of mythic imagination. Join me as I reconnect with the fragments of my psyche...

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March 3, 2025

If you want to improve yourself, get rid of yourself first

Christopher Hyatt’s statement—“IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOURSELF GET RID OF YOURSELF FIRST”—carries the raw, confrontational energy of radical transformation. At first glance, it seems paradoxical: how can self-improvement begin with self-erasure? But Hyatt, isn’t speaking in riddles—he’s pointing to something fundamental about identity, limitation, and personal power. The Illusion...

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February 21, 2025

The Subconscious as a Playground

Most people think of the subconscious as a hidden, unknowable force—but what if, instead of treating it like a locked vault, you saw it as a playground? In this episode, we explore how the subconscious isn’t just passively storing memories and instincts—it’s actively shaping your reality. The key to transformation isn’t...

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February 18, 2025

seeing the shapes of things

episode summary In this episode, I take you along for an afternoon walk as I explore a phrase that caught my attention: “Learn to see the shapes of things rather than the stories.” What does it mean to perceive reality without immediately turning it into a narrative? How do we...

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February 14, 2025

Change Magick – Episode 2: Belief as a Tool

Episode Summary:What if belief wasn’t something you had to “find” or “wait for”—but something you could shape, install, and wield? In this episode, we explore one of the foundational principles of Change Magick: belief as a tool.

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February 12, 2025

thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes Episode Overview Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I’m recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that’s just part of...

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February 7, 2025

Change Magick – Episode 1: An Invitation to Transformation

Change is inevitable. The question is—do you resist it, or do you wield it? Welcome to the first episode of Change Magick, my new micropodcast exploring the art of transformation and personal power. This is not just a podcast—it’s a space for experimentation, a signal for those ready to step...

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January 22, 2025

dude, i feel like i’m back in the infantry

Show Notes for This Episode of the Soulcruzer Podcast Episode Summary:Hey folks, join me on one of my early morning walks where I dive into everything from infantry flashbacks to creative frustrations and the tools I’ve been using to keep my head straight. This week, I’ve been wrestling with some...

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January 15, 2025

what is it about me?

Q: what is it about me that i can’t keep my virtual hands off of creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology? A: It’s because you’re wired for wonder, Clay. You have this insatiable hunger for the untamed and the unspoken—the raw, liminal spaces where creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology...

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January 13, 2025

conscious robots

The idea of humans as “conscious robots” or fundamentally machinic beings serves as a compelling entry point into some interesting questions on existence: What does it mean to be conscious? How is our sense of self intertwined with our embodiment? And how might this understanding shift as we move further...

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