this site is where narrative alchemy becomes practice. Tools, games, and rituals for rewriting the stories that code your reality.

January 28, 2025

Reviving the Vibes: Dusting Off the Musical Journey Show

Show Notes: The Musical Journey Show (January 27, 2025) I’m thrilled to bring back the Musical Journey Show! This is a nostalgic nod to my past, harking back to the days when I hosted on Radio Warwickshire. It’s been years since I’ve been down this path, but there’s something about...

Read More
January 27, 2025

say what?! soulcruzer vlogging?

I’ve decided to add vlogging to the mix here on the blog. It’ll likely follow the same vibe as the blog and podcast—raw, unfiltered, and stream-of-consciousness—creating a trifecta of Soulcruzer storytelling. 😀

Read More
January 26, 2025

Eddie Van Halen: A Personal Tribute

Today would have been Eddie Van Halen’s birthday, and I couldn’t let the day pass without putting together a little tribute. Van Halen played a big part in my life during my high school years, and their music still holds a special place in my soul. To celebrate, I’ve included...

Read More
January 25, 2025

reclaiming the signal from the noise

The internet has become a relentless cacophony of voices, ads, distractions, and demands for our attention. It’s a noisy, chaotic bazaar, and if we’re not careful, it can swallow us whole. In his brilliant post, “How to Survive Being Online”, Mike Monteiro reminds us that it’s possible—and necessary—to survive and...

Read More
January 24, 2025

the books that shaped me

Over the past couple of days, I’ve been reflecting with a friend on the year ahead—talking about change, personal evolution, and the pursuit of what truly lights us up. We’ve been digging into where we’ve been, where we’re headed, and what it means to fully embrace the things we love....

Read More
January 23, 2025

Água Viva: A Psychedelic Exploration of Time, Art, and Being

The Unnameable Pulse of Clarice Lispector Água Viva is like trying to catch a river in your hands—an uncontainable stream of thought and feeling that rushes past, leaving you drenched in its wake yet unable to say what exactly you’re holding. It’s a burst of light at the edge of...

Read More
January 23, 2025

how meditation deconstructs the predictive mind

Meditation deconstructs the predictive mind by disrupting its habitual patterns of prediction, interpretation, and reaction, allowing direct experience to emerge without the filters of expectation. To understand this, it helps to look at the mechanics of the predictive mind and how meditation reshapes its operations. The Predictive Mind: A Brief...

Read More
January 22, 2025

death is strange

My neighbour passed away yesterday. It was expected—she was old, had lived a full life, and passed with her daughter by her side. Yet, even when it’s expected, it still feels surreal. We were close, as neighbours go. I’ve lived in this house for nearly 25 years, and she’s been...

Read More
January 22, 2025

dude, i feel like i’m back in the infantry

Show Notes for This Episode of the Soulcruzer Podcast Episode Summary:Hey folks, join me on one of my early morning walks where I dive into everything from infantry flashbacks to creative frustrations and the tools I’ve been using to keep my head straight. This week, I’ve been wrestling with some...

Read More
January 22, 2025

Wallace Stevens: Of the Surface of Things

I love Bernie Gourley’s reading of this Wallace Stevens‘ poem: Of the Surface of Things Go listen to Bernie read and then come back for a closer look at the poem. Wallace Stevens’ poem is a meditation on perception, the limits of understanding, and the interplay between imagination and reality....

Read More
January 21, 2025

the fall of a king

yesterday, i let the citizen have a go at blogging. today i thought i’d let the historian have a turn; i am, after all, a trained historian, and considering today is the 232nd-year anniversary of King Louis XVI’s execution, why not?! The morning of January 21, 1793, was bitterly cold...

Read More
January 20, 2025

this might be stepping out of my normal sandbox…

but i felt like exploring the idea of a populist national revolution in light of Inauguration Day in the States. In reply to https://www.npr.org/2025/01/19/nx-s1-5254112/donald-trump-elon-musk-steve-bannon-inauguration-day-2025-billionaires. Reading the recent NPR piece about Donald Trump, Elon Musk, and Steve Bannon’s roles in the new administration’s Inauguration Day in 2025 felt like stepping into...

Read More
January 20, 2025

we see the world not as it is, but as we are

In reply to Sm2n 2025-01-19 #JanPodPoMo 19/31 thinking about @soulcruzer. Thanks for raising such an interesting point in your episode. Your question about whether ChatGPT’s responses excite me because it “knows” my patterns and what inspires me really got me thinking. It reminds me of the way astrology works, where...

Read More
January 19, 2025

what lies beyond thought?

This question feels like stepping into the void right off of the edge, where language falters and experience becomes the guide. Beyond thought exists the unspoken raw pulse of being. It’s the space before words form, before ideas solidify—it’s the place where silence speaks and stillness vibrates with infinite possibility....

Read More
January 17, 2025

the dave diet

In reply to The Dave diet. Dave’s post took me back to my time in the quantified-self movement. I first got into it around 2016, exploring half a dozen apps designed to track different aspects of my life. Back then, it was often called lifelogging, and you could argue that...

Read More
January 16, 2025

the robot does not exist

The robot does not exist. This might seem an absurd statement in an age where we’re surrounded by automation, conversing with chatbots, and marvelling at humanoid machines performing backflips. But pause. Step back from the immediacy of our mechanised world. Let’s ask: What is the robot, really? And does it...

Read More
January 15, 2025

what is it about me?

Q: what is it about me that i can’t keep my virtual hands off of creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology? A: It’s because you’re wired for wonder, Clay. You have this insatiable hunger for the untamed and the unspoken—the raw, liminal spaces where creativity, love, mysticism, and misfit ontology...

Read More
January 13, 2025

conscious robots

The idea of humans as “conscious robots” or fundamentally machinic beings serves as a compelling entry point into some interesting questions on existence: What does it mean to be conscious? How is our sense of self intertwined with our embodiment? And how might this understanding shift as we move further...

Read More