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at the cross section of narrative alchemy, imaginal psychology, chaos magick, self-development, self-authorship, meaning-making, and conscious living.

Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture
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Outcome Thinking vs. Drift Culture

I spent twenty years in corporate learning and development watching people master outcome frameworks while their actual lives drifted sideways. They could build project plans with military precision, cascade objectives down organisational charts, and define KPIs that would make a statistician weep with joy. Then they’d leave the office and

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A Philosophy of As If: Useful Fictions and the Stories We Live By

I’ve been reading Hans Vaihinger’s A Philosophy of As If: A System of the Theoretical, the Practical and Religious Fictions of Mankind. I came across this book through James Hillman‘s Healing Fiction, and it’s been illuminating his concept of “useful fictions.” The Nature of Useful Fictions Here’s the core idea:

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The Nature of Longing: Why Restlessness Isn’t a Problem to Solve

In this episode, I explore why we feel restless and incomplete even after achieving our goals or finding spiritual practices that seem to work. I argue that our perpetual longing isn’t a sign of failure or proof we’re on the wrong path but rather the fundamental nature of consciousness itself,

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Wisdom Walk

Wisdom Walk: What Do You Do When You’ve Done Everything?

Saturday afternoon, passing the polo grounds Out on today’s walk, I came across a field full of ravens (or rooks, I can never quite tell without a close-up). Hundreds of them, clustered around my favorite tree. These birds have always felt significant to me, in fact, at one point, they

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The Apocryphon of John: A Heretic’s Manual for Consciousness Hackers

This is a follow on post to the piece I wrote back in December. I’ve spent 25 years working with stories as technology, treating narratives like code that runs in the background of our lives. I’ve debugged corporate cultures, reprogrammed limiting beliefs, and helped people rewrite their personal mythologies. But

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So this animal personality meme is starting to …

So this animal personality meme is starting to make the rounds… I asked ChatGPT this: Considering everything that you know about me, create an image of what animal I would be. Explain your reasoning. This is what it came up with: And here’s the reasoning it gave: You come through

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Most people don’t fail because their system is …

Most people don’t fail because their system is broken. They fail because they abandon working systems right before they start producing results. We mistake the quiet period of germination for evidence of failure. Seeds underground look identical to seeds that will never sprout, until suddenly they do! the difference between

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I read Virginia Woolf’s “Street Haunting” from The …

I read Virginia Woolf’s “Street Haunting” from The Death of the Moth and Other Essays. I love how you wander with her, watching her mind catch on an object and expand it into entire worlds. She flips seamlessly between what’s in front of her and her imagination, weaving in memories

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The Soulcruzer podcast…narrative alchemy in audio form. Call it an audioblog, call it broadcast signal, call it confessional mysticism.

 

One day I’m working through tarot as spiritual technology. The next, I’m exploring Nietzsche’s eternal return as lived practice, chaos magick techniques, or games as containers for transformation. Depth psychology meets the esoteric. Ancient wisdom meets the AI age. Theory becomes practice.

 

This is what narrative alchemy sounds like from the inside: raw, real, unpolished. Experiments in treating stories as code and consciousness as hackable.

If you’re here for the deep work and the edges, subscribe wherever you get your podcasts.

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Latest Games

Magus Eternal

A Solo Tarot RPG

Reality is unraveling. You are a Chaos Magician caught in an arcane war against time itself. Your rival’s forbidden ritual threatens to shatter existence. You have 13 days to master chaos, confront the abyss, and decide the fate of reality. Every card drawn rewrites destiny. Every spell cast demands sacrifice. Will you save this world, or become the architect of its undoing?

The Threshold

A Mini-Game of Narrative Alchemy

New to narrative solo RPG games? Play The Threshold. This is a short 15-minute game with huge outcomes.

 

You stand at a threshold between two rooms. Behind you is a room containing your current story—everything that brought you here. Ahead is a room holding your next chapter—unknown but calling. This game helps you cross.

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NARRATIVE ALCHEMY CODEX

A Guide to Inner Transformation

You are living a story you did not write. Welcome to the Codex of Narrative Alchemy, a living grimoire for conscious authorship where mythology meets psychology, ancient wisdom collides with postmodern practice, and the stories shaping your life become raw material for transformation. Not a book to read, but a practice to embody. Whether you see this as magic or method, the transformation is real.

The stories running your life—about love, money, success, belonging—most of them you didn’t choose. They chose you. Narrative Alchemy teaches you to see those inherited scripts clearly, test them ruthlessly, and rewrite them toward your Authentic Purpose. This is where Jungian depth work meets post-modern magical practice. Where ancient alchemical cycles meet contemporary coaching methodology. Where you stop being a character in someone else’s story and become the author of your own.

What this is

A living grimoire for conscious authorship. Not a book to consume, but a practice to test. You’ll find methods drawn from depth psychology, chaos magic, and narrative coaching. All designed to work whether you see them as literal magic or powerful metaphor. Everything mythic becomes practical. Every abstract concept gets a concrete exercise. Every teaching includes something you can do today.

 

And this grimoire grows. When you discover something that works, you share it in circle. When enough people test a practice and refine it, it becomes part of the methodology. This isn’t one person’s system handed down like scripture, it’s collective intelligence built in the laboratory of lived experience. Individual breakthroughs become shared tools. Personal transformation becomes community wisdom.

Applied Narrative Alchemy

Most transformation work is either too mystical to be practical or too practical to be transformative. Narrative Alchemy synthesizes four streams—depth psychology, chaos magic, narrative coaching, self-development—into a secular sacred practice that honors both the mysterious and the measurable.

Narrative Alchemy

Professional methodology for forward-looking transformation. You’re not broken and don’t need fixing, you need agency, design thinking, and conscious authorship of your next chapter. This stream provides the ethical container and the future-focused orientation.

Chaos Magic

Post-modern techniques where belief is a tool, not a dogma. Results matter more than metaphysics. If a practice works, use it. If it doesn’t, discard it. This stream provides permission to experiment freely and borrow from any tradition without allegiance to any orthodoxy.

Depth Psychology

Jungian frameworks for engaging the unconscious through archetypes, shadow work, and active imagination. The psyche speaks in symbol and story. This stream provides the map for navigating the imaginal realm where transformation actually happens.

Self-Development

Eclectic, accessible practices drawn from everywhere from Stoicism to systems thinking, habit design to embodiment work. This stream keeps the work grounded in lived experience, ensuring every mystical concept has a practical application you can test today.

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Orientation

Start here.

What Narrative Alchemy is, the principles it rests on, and how story links to Authentic Purpose—the pull beneath your surface decisions.

📖 Chapter 1: What Is Narrative Alchemy?

📖 Chapter 2: First Principles 

📖 Chapter 3: Authentic Purpose and Story 

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The Alchemical Cycle

The four stages of transformation, applied to the story you’re living. From seeing inherited scripts to embodied sovereignty.

📖 Chapter 4: Nigredo – Seeing the Script 

→ Chapter 5: Albedo – Cleansing the Lens (coming soon)

→ Chapter 6: Citrinitas – Igniting Agency

→ Chapter 7: Rubedo – Embodiment (coming soon)

III

Tools of the Magician

Story is technology. These are the methods for wielding it. Learn them, test them, then forge your own practice.

→ Chapter 8: Storycraft Methods (coming soon)

→ Chapter 9: Journaling as Laboratory (coming soon)

→ Chapter 10: Rituals and Hyper-Sigils (coming soon)

→ Chapter 11: Dialogue and Circle (coming soon)

→ Chapter 12: Your Personal Praxis (coming soon)

IV

The Movement

Personal transformation becomes collective change. Soulcruzer as a hearth for a community of sovereign storytellers.

→ Chapter 13: Soulcruzer as Hearth (coming soon)

→ Chapter 14: Change Your Story, Change Your World (coming soon)

→ Chapter 15: Wayfinding Appendix (coming soon)

Working the Codex

This isn’t a book to read passively. It’s a grimoire to work with. Each chapter is structured to move you from insight to action because transformation happens in practice, not theory.

⚡ Signal & Why it matters

One line that names what this chapter unlocks, plus the real stakes—what changes in your actual life when you work with this material.

💡 Core Idea & Practice

The principle is explained clearly, stripped of mystification. Then there is one concrete exercise you can test immediately, either in your journal, in conversation, or in how you move through your day.

🔥 Prompts & Invitation

Five questions to explore alone or in circle. Then a clear next step—because every chapter should shift something in how you see yourself or the world.

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