Reflection · May 25, 2025

before the world wakes

a morning conversation between me and something older than me


ME:
It’s just past six.
I’m in the back garden, coffee in hand, wrapped in that soft hush before the world remembers itself.
The ravens are out already—calling overhead like they know something.
And I’ve been sitting with this thought:
There’s something about the way we move through life…
Like, where we’re going matters, sure—
but how we travel? That shapes everything.

VOICE:
Yeah.
Sometimes the destination isn’t even the point.
It’s the being that gets shaped along the way.
The walk is the work.

ME:
Right, but then I wonder—what am I really trying to do here, spiritually speaking?
Let go of old baggage? Rewrite stories that were never truly mine?
Unhook from all the noise and just… be?

VOICE:
Could be.
Or maybe you’re just remembering.
Not fixing anything. Not ascending. Just coming back to what’s always been true underneath the static.

ME:
But why is that so hard?
If wholeness is who we are, why do we have to fight so hard to feel it again?
Why weren’t we raised to remember it from the beginning?

VOICE:
Because even the wise can’t shortcut the mystery.
They can point to the door, sure—
but walking through it? That’s always personal.

We don’t get born with a map.
We get born into a story—half-written, mostly borrowed.
And sooner or later, we realise:
Hey, this story doesn’t quite fit.
That’s the start of the real journey.

ME:
Still feels like we spend years circling back to what we already were.
Why can’t we stay whole?

VOICE:
Maybe because the soul doesn’t just want to be whole—
it wants to choose wholeness.
Over and over again.
Even when it’s hard.
Even when it hurts.

That choosing?
That’s where the beauty lives.

ME:
So we’re not broken?

VOICE:
Nah.
Just deep in the game of forgetting.
And honestly? You play it well.
So well, you even fooled yourself.

ME:
Yeah, I’ve felt that.
And also this ache—like I’m tired of forgetting, tired of trying to remember.

VOICE:
That ache is part of the myth too.
The soul gets weary sometimes.
But every time you sit with it—like now, with coffee and ravens—you reclaim a piece.
You stitch another thread back into the tapestry.

ME:
So if I already am whole…
how should I walk today?

VOICE:
Notice.
That’s all.
Notice the wind in the trees.
The light shifting.
The way your breath feels when it’s not chasing anything.

Walk like you belong to this moment.
Because you do.

ME:
And if I forget again?

VOICE:
Then sit again.
With the sky.
With your coffee.
With the birds.
And just… listen.
You’ll remember.

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