personal blog since 2004
The audio blog of Soulcruzer aka Clay Lowe.
#AudioMo Day 5 a little trip down memory lane has me thinking when do family and friends start becoming strangers to each other?
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Montaigne: We are never ‘at home’: we are always outside ourselves. Fear, desire, hope, impel us towards the future; they rob us of feelings and concerns for what now is, in order to spend time over what will be – even when ourselves shall be no more. Wretched is the...
That’s thing about life, it doesn’t move in a linear fashion (ok well time does, maybe) but our life’s plan sure as heck doesn’t. It’s full of peaks and troughs and sometimes the peaks are really high and the troughs are really low. But I believe it all balances out...
I have in mind to evolve, to break out of habits that bind me, that confine me, that leave my soul a stagnate pool of green slime. My habits are vicious little gnomes that enslave my behaviors, perceptions, emotions, and thoughts and limit my range of possibilities in a limitless...
I’m curious to know where I am going next. Several timely quotes have presented themselves to me at a time when I am feeling transient. The first is from Steve Jobs: “Remembering I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big...
In times of reflection I sometimes turn to the Tao Te Ching (the book of The Way), written by Lao-Tzu, for guidance. Over these past several days my thinking has taken several synchronistic turns and I realize that the path I chose to walk several years ago is still the...
Crashed into the world, a product of two teenagers playing house. Inner city, big city, watched a man get shot, nearly lost my eye. Dragged to the suburbs to make a better life. Life sucked. Too boring and tame. Thought I’d make a name, jumping out of planes and blowing...
I’ve never really considered the word ‘ambition,’ especially not as a way of describing myself as in ambitious or full of ambition. But yesterday, when I came across a definition of ambition and tried it on, I suddenly felt a surge of power. I felt compelled to act towards obtaining...
Picked up the new macbook today. I’ve had my eye on upgrading for a while, although I couldn’t decided whether to go with the MacBook Air or the MacBook. In the end price and lack of a decent sized hard drive drove me away from the air, whose most endearing...
thinking through this past weekend and i realized that i have either been very present or very dreamy… on the drive down south this morning, i started remember all the moving pieces of my life at the moment – things i should be doing, events coming up that i haven’t...
An old family friend was visiting us. She looked at Ruth and said to me: “She looks good. She doesn’t look haggard, which means you are being good to her.” “What about me?’” I asked. “Do I look haggard?” The old lady placed her hands on my cheeks and inspected...
And what does it matter in the end, the prince and the pauper travel different roads to reach the same end, buried six feet beneath cold earth, food for the worms and a silent eternity.
Life has been trying to creep back into my consciousness. Or least all those things that try to distract me and pass themselves off as life – like death and taxes. It seems that when I live in the now, all sorts of other things build up in the periphery...
“What we call the beginning is often the end And to make and end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” (T.S. Eliot, The Gidding, V)
Dear God, I just realized it’s your son’s birthday next week. I thought it would be a good time to drop you a line. How long has it been since we last spoke? It’s got to be at least 2,500 years or so. Time flies doesn’t it? I can imagine,...
I feel I am coming into my own at last in finding my what and my why. It is imperative that I keep the will up. As Mohammad Ali once said, “it’s not the skill of a man, it’s a the will of man that makes the difference.”
(1) If you want to accomplish something of significance, you have to put in the blood, sweat, and tears to do it. It is that simple. But as Morpheus says in The Matrix, ‘there is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path’. (2) At present I work...
This story has fallen into my hands courteous of Paulo Coelho from his blog. I know he won’t mind me posting it here because he ends all his blog posts with: Welcome to Share with Friends – Free Texts for a Free Internet And he is, in fact, giving a...
born Beth Israel Hospital, play time, almost lose my eye, eat sand, father away on a ship, man shot in front of me bleeding stripped to his underwear, orgies, broken plates, dead bird caused by my hand, big park, Pablo, monkey man, lemon cream cookie thief, books = friends, army...
I had a spell of enlightenment. I chased that down with a cold patch of dark madness. I found my head again, but now I am fighting boredom. I want peace, love, and harmony on the one hand; and on the other, I want beer, battle, and bitches. I keep...
I heard the door close on three good friendships this week. As I listened to their footsteps stagger down the street, I paused to reflect as to why. Friendships, it seems to me, tend to gently drift apart over the course of time. Unless, of course, the friendship ends because...
