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a small messenger of memento mori

This morning, I stepped outside—not to get anywhere, but to clear the cobwebs from my mind. A simple walk, a quiet dérive, untangling thoughts spun from a day of circling my own house, my own head. It’s easy to drift away from the core of who we are. To become lost in the habitual, the external, the subtle inertia of daily life. But moments like this—a walk, a pause, a breath—can be a recalibration, a way of realigning with what it truly means to be me, not as dictated by obligations or routines, but as I define it. I ask

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February 9, 2025 No Comments

this is why i love science fiction

This is why I love science fiction—it’s a genre that doesn’t just tell stories; it wrestles with the big questions of existence, technology, and humanity’s future. I’ve just started reading R.U.R. (Rossum’s Universal Robots) by Karel Čapek, the 1920 play that introduced the word robot to the world. Written in the aftermath of World War I, R.U.R. is a fascinating and prophetic piece of science fiction theatre. It grapples with themes that feel eerily relevant today: the ethics of creation, the dehumanising effects of technology, and what it really means to be human. Čapek’s robots aren’t the mechanical beings we

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January 25, 2025 No Comments

Notes to self on art

Art: The Comfort and the Catalyst Art, in all its forms, has this uncanny ability to meet us exactly where we are, then take us somewhere we didn’t expect to go. It comforts us when life feels like an unrelenting storm, and it shakes us awake when we’ve grown too comfortable, too complacent. It’s like a mirror that not only reflects but refracts, bending our reality into something new, something we need to see—whether we want to or not. You’ve probably heard the phrase: “Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable.” It’s one of those truths that resonates

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December 9, 2024 No Comments

i’ve been on the road for most of the last couple of weeks

I’ve been on the road for most of the past couple of weeks, which has disrupted my blogging routine a bit. During times like this, I tend to shift my focus to microblogging. Up until now, I’ve mainly stuck to Twitter (or X) and Instagram for that, but with all the shenanigans on X and the opaque algorithmic trickery on platforms like Instagram and Threads, I’ve been gravitating more toward Bluesky as my go-to microblogging platform. If you’re already on Bluesky, let’s connect—my handle is @soulcruzer.bsky.social. If you’re not on the platform yet, I’d recommend giving it a shot. It’s

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December 7, 2024 2 Comments

Jung’s model of the psyche

This is a beautiful visualisation of Carl Jung’s model of the psyche, particularly focussing on the interactions between the conscious and unconscious mind. Here’s a breakdown of its elements: Overall, this diagram is a guide to understanding the layers of Jungian psychology and the journey towards individuation—integrating all parts of the psyche to achieve wholeness.

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September 27, 2024 2 Comments

The Tarot and Jungian psychology

The Tarot and Jungian psychology are intimately connected in their shared concern with the deep layers of the psyche and their reliance on archetypes to convey spiritual, psychological, and existential truths. Both systems offer symbolic maps that help navigate the inner world, facilitating self-reflection and personal growth. By exploring the structure of the Tarot deck through the lens of Jungian psychology, we can begin to see how the layers of the psyche correspond to different parts of the deck, offering a profound tool for self-understanding. The Major Arcana and the Collective Unconscious In Jungian psychology, the collective unconscious is a

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September 27, 2024 No Comments

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Hi, my name is Clay Lowe, aka Soulcruzer. This is the part where I have to reduce myself to a label so you can understand who I am and what I am about. But as Kierkegaard pointed out, labels have a way of negating the person. If I tell you I’m a blogger, I get reduced to whatever meaning you’ve assigned to the word ‘blogger’. I resist labels. And yet, here we are. So, in the context you find me in now, I am indeed a blogger.

I have worn many others. I’ve been a soldier, a learning and development consultant, a trainer, and a coach. I’ve also called myself a barefoot philosopher, a narrative alchemist, and a rogue learner, among others. These were an attempt to orient me to myself. More recently, I’ve been working out what it means to operate as a text-based ontologist in a world where text is becoming the universal substrate.

A text-based ontologist sounds like someone who should live in a footnote.

They don’t.

They live in the browser window, the notebook, the prompt box, the blog editor, the Obsidian graph, the half-finished post, and the walking thought captured before it evaporates. Their material is language. Their subject is being. Their method is to hold attention long enough for a sentence to disclose what it is carrying.

It’s not really a job title. It’s more of a way of being caught by the world.

In the end, though, I am just a man walking a path.

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The Mirror That Answers Back

The old questions have not changed much. How should I live? Who am I becoming? What is worth paying attention to? What is freedom? What is wisdom? What is the soul, if we dare still use that word? These questions predate Socrates. They predate writing. They are carved into the bones of the species, and they have kept philosophers, mystics, poets, and ordinary troubled humans occupied for as long as there have been fires to sit around and dark skies to stare into. Every generation meets them as if for the first time. Every life receives them fresh, intimate, inconvenient,

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June 6, 2026 No Comments

A Lamp at the Doorway

I finished Richard Cavendish’s The Black Arts this week. Not in the heroic readerly sense of having sat down and consumed it cleanly from first page to last, pencil in hand, scholar’s lamp burning into the night. I have been reading it on and off for a few months. Picking it up, putting it down, returning to it when the mood came back round. Some books ask for that kind of reading. They don’t want to be finished quickly. They want to become part of the weather for a while. My copy is the 50th anniversary edition. I bought it

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June 4, 2026 No Comments

Unhinged Bio

I stole this idea from Justin Brooke on his LinkedIn profile. It’s a FUN PROMPT, and what came back from ChatGPT was pretty cool. I also asked Claude; the results were good, but they lacked an edge. Anyway, the prompt is: Write an unhinged BIO about me. Here’s mine: Clay Lowe is a walking footnote in the great unwritten manuscript of the universe. Part blogger, part philosopher, part myth-drenched field reporter from the edge of ordinary life, he spends his days following the rhizome wherever it wants to go: down muddy footpaths, through obscure books, into the textual underground, across

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June 3, 2026 No Comments

What did God do when he buried his breath in the clay?

Maybe he made matter remember music. Clay, before breath, is just earth with potential. Dense. Damp. Waiting. It belongs to gravity, riverbed, field, grave, brick, and vessel. But breath is movement. Breath is an invisible rhythm. Breath is spirit entering form without ceasing to be invisible. So when God buried his breath in the clay, maybe he hid wind inside weight. He took what falls and placed inside it something that rises. That’s the human paradox right there: mud with a skyward ache. Not pure spirit. Not mere animal. Not just body, not just soul. A walking contradiction. Earth that

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June 3, 2026 No Comments

The Boredom Game

The ghosts in the American Ghosts have been dead for centuries. One of them for over a thousand years. They rattle around a house in the Hudson Valley: Revolutionary War soldiers, bootleggers, a Viking, a 1920s lounge singer. Most of their time goes to trying not to go mad from the sameness of it. Survival is over for them. That game is finished. The only game left is what you do with consciousness when there’s nothing pressing requiring it. Which is, if you sit with it for a minute, mostly the game we’re all playing too. Every living creature is

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June 2, 2026 No Comments

Playing Against the Programme

I used to think the screen was something I looked at. Vilém Flusser makes the more troubling suggestion. The screen is something I look through. That shift matters. It sounds small at first, a neat little media-theory reversal, the sort of thing one writes in the margin of a book and then forgets. But once it enters the bloodstream, it starts rearranging the furniture. The phone stops being a device in the hand and becomes a frame around the world. The camera stops being a way to capture reality and becomes a programme for producing certain kinds of reality. The

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June 2, 2026 No Comments

The illusion of choice

I was choosing a book to read this morning and realised I wasn’t actually choosing. I was scrolling through recommendations, algorithmic suggestions, and what other people had tagged as important. The menu had been prepared. I was just picking. There’s a difference between choosing and selecting from a menu. Choosing is generative. It comes from inside. You’re authoring the question as well as the answer. You’re making something that didn’t exist in the option set. Selecting is consuming. The frame has already been set. Your job is to optimise within it. Better coffee, better career path, better productivity system. All

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June 2, 2026 No Comments

The Rucksack, the Drift, and the Thinking Walk

I have been thinking about walking. This week has clarified something about why. You stay alive to your life by staying in motion. The physical motion is part of it. The attention staying awake is the larger part. The question underneath: Do you have a practice that holds? A real one, lived rather than intended, that keeps the self porous and curious and in genuine contact with the actual world. This is what Japhy Ryder understood. In The Dharma Bums, he has a vision: thousands of young Americans walking into the mountains with rucksacks on their backs, refusing the dream

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June 1, 2026 No Comments

On Becoming a Soft Cyborg: Notes on Human-AI Symbiosis, Narrative Evolution, and the Next Great Merger

The first merger was a hostile takeover that became a marriage. Two billion years ago, a free-living bacterium got eaten by a larger cell, refused to be digested, and instead settled in as a permanent guest. The deal it cut was outrageous. In exchange for shelter, it would produce all the energy. That bacterium is sitting in every cell of your body right now. We call it a mitochondrion. The merger paid for everything that came after. Bigger cells. Tissues. Nervous systems. Conversations like this one. D. Scott Phoenix wants us to think about AI the same way. The next

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May 28, 2026 1 Comment

Wrestling with Angels

I came across the phrase while reading Spotify the Gnostics, Here’s the First Church of David Bowie by Sean Manseau. Wrestling with angels. Some phrases arrive carrying more weight than their literal meaning. They feel older than language. Older than the person who spoke them. This was one of those phrases. The moment I read it, something in me recognised it before I had even fully thought about why. It immediately pulled me toward the story of Jacob beside the river Jabbok. Night falling. Isolation. A mysterious being appearing in the dark. Then the struggle itself, physical, spiritual, psychological, mythic,

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May 24, 2026 No Comments

Wisdom Walk: Boxes and the Philosopher Coach

Wednesday morning. Wind in the microphone. One of those recordings where the first question is whether the machine is even listening. I am walking through one of the neighbourhoods here, past the boxes people spend their lives trying to own. Box after box after box. Same roofline. Same windows. Same little square of intention at the front. A few flowers. A different car. Some token of distinction placed carefully against the architecture of sameness. You need the house numbers. Without them, how would anyone know which box was theirs? This is the thing that caught me. The sheer quantity of

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May 20, 2026 3 Comments

Notes Toward a Text-Based Ontology in the Age of Executable Language

There was a time when ontology belonged to philosophers in heavy coats asking whether tables were real. The question has since escaped the seminar room and entered the machine. Today, ontology is no longer merely the study of being. It is the management of symbolic reality systems. The organisation of categories. The naming of entities. The arrangement of relations between things. And increasingly, this work occurs inside environments where language itself is operational infrastructure. The medium is no longer paper describing reality from a distance. The medium is executable text. To call oneself a text-based ontologist sounds at first like

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May 18, 2026 No Comments

The Text-Based Ontologist: A Syllabus for Reality Engineers, Narrative Alchemists, and Semantic Cartographers

This is not a traditional academic programme. It sits somewhere between the philosophy department, occult library, media lab, hacker space, monastery, writer’s workshop, and signal intelligence unit. The central premise: Human beings inhabit realities structured by language.In computational culture, text has become executable.Therefore, whoever understands symbolic systems understands reality construction. The goal of the text-based ontologist is not merely to analyse the world, but to perceive and shape the narrative architectures through which worlds emerge. YEAR I — FOUNDATIONS OF THE SYMBOLIC WORLD Module 1: Language as Reality Infrastructure Core Question: How does language shape perception and possibility? Topics: Key

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May 15, 2026 1 Comment

Jim Morrison’s Reading List

The myth of Jim Morrison is a myth of pure instinct. He arrives fully formed in the collective memory: shirtless, obliterated, magnificent, doomed. The leather trousers. The baiting of audiences in New Haven and Miami. The voice that seemed to come from somewhere older than rock and roll. The story we inherited insists that this was all eruption, all Dionysian overflow, a man too full of something dark and vital to contain it. The story is wrong. Morrison entered UCLA’s film school in 1964 as a serious student of ideas. He wrote poetry obsessively, in notebooks he carried everywhere, before

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May 14, 2026 No Comments

Three Cards, No Daylight

Yesterday felt like wading through wet sand. Every idea that surfaced dissolved before it could be shaped into anything. Underneath that is the voice that says, ‘If I can’t produce today, what does that mean for tomorrow, for the whole enterprise?’ It got louder as the afternoon wore on. I know that voice. It is not telling the truth. Knowing that doesn’t silence it. This morning I pulled three cards. Sat with them at the desk before anything else happened, before coffee or email or the reflex to check what the world is doing. Let them sit. Not one of

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May 12, 2026 No Comments

The Hill of the Goblins and other matters

Sunday. Mid-morning. We’re just south of Mold, tucked into a fold in the Flintshire landscape that the main roads have mostly forgotten about. I’m on a family retreat with my wife, our son and his partner, our daughter, and Rosie. Rosie is eleven months old now and is the reason we are all here. She’s the reason for most things now. The Welsh countryside handled the phones for us: my signal was nearly nonexistent, and the Airbnb WiFi was hit and miss, but nobody really minded. I did most of my reading in the mornings before the house woke up,

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May 10, 2026 No Comments

You Can Understand Everything and Still Not Know What to Do

How should I live? Socrates called it the examined life. The Daoists called it the Way. Every philosophical tradition worth its name has some version of it, which tells you something. This question isn’t optional. It’s baked into what it means to be human. I was listening to Jordan Peterson’s Maps of Meaning on my walk into town this afternoon, heading to Tesco to pick up a few things. I listened to chapter one, Maps of Experience. Already, it feels like one of those books you don’t just read. You go into it. His opening move is deceptively simple. We

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May 5, 2026 No Comments

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