tired of lunacy
i lay my head down
to love you
Your story is your operating system; Hack the code.
Hi, I'm Clay Lowe.
I'm a narrative alchemist and spiritual technologist working at the intersection of depth psychology, chaos magick, alchemy, and myth-making in the AI age.
I treat stories as spiritual technology—the code we use to construct reality. I build games, practices, and tools for inner transformation through narrative alchemy.
This is my laboratory. The experiments are real. The magic works.
Narrative Alchemy
Narrative Alchemy is the practice of treating stories as spiritual technology—seeing inherited scripts clearly, releasing what isn't yours, and consciously authoring new myths to live by.
It's where Jung meets chaos magic, where the imaginal becomes operational, and where inner transformation reshapes outer reality.
I build games, practices, and frameworks that make this work tangible. Magus Eternal is one of those tools—a tarot RPG designed as a container for threshold crossing. The Narrative Codex is another—a living archive of techniques, lore, and experiments.
This isn't coaching or therapy. It's spiritual technology for people ready to hack their own operating system.
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Latest Podcast Episode
Soulcruzer
The Soulcruzer podcast…narrative alchemy in audio form. Call it an audioblog, call it threshold work, call it confessional mysticism.
One day I’m working through tarot as spiritual technology. The next, I’m exploring Nietzsche’s eternal return as lived practice, chaos magick techniques, or games as containers for transformation. Depth psychology meets the esoteric. Ancient wisdom meets the AI age. Theory becomes practice.
This is what narrative alchemy sounds like from the inside: raw, real, unpolished. Experiments in treating stories as code and consciousness as hackable.
If you’re here for the deep work and the edges, subscribe wherever you get your podcasts.
Journaling as Narrative Alchemy
In this episode, I explore journaling as narrative alchemy, revealing how ancient alchemical stages map onto a powerful writing practice.
Here’s the original article: Journaling as Narrative Alchemy: Writing Your Way Into a New Self
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The Narrative Alchemist’s Essential Library
Man and His Symbols is an accessible gateway into Jungian depth work. This illustrated exploration of archetypes and symbols reveals how transformation happens in the imaginal realm, below conscious awareness.
Hillman's "acorn theory" illuminates the path to Authentic Purpose. His poetic yet rigorous approach gives language to the daimonic self and the ineffable aspects of personal mythology.
Mary K. Greer's seminal workbook transforms tarot from divination tool into technology for self-knowledge and narrative sovereignty. Packed with exercises that treat the cards as doorways to the imaginal realm, this is required reading for practitioners ready to use archetypal imagery as active imagination practice.
Johnson demystifies Jung's most powerful technique with step-by-step guidance for engaging the imaginal realm directly. This slim volume transforms abstract theory into actionable practice—essential for practitioners ready to move beyond conceptual understanding.
The clearest introduction to chaos magic as pragmatic practice. Strips away dogma to reveal the core mechanics of belief as a tool. Perfectly bridges the gap between depth psychology and results-orientated transformation work.
While the hero's journey has been overused, Campbell's original text remains vital for understanding narrative structure as psycho-spiritual map. Read it to learn the pattern, then transcend it.
This groundbreaking work bridges the mystical and scientific, revealing how tarot actually works through the lens of neuroscience and cognitive psychology. Essential reading for practitioners who want to understand the neurological mechanisms behind symbol work, pattern recognition, and the imaginal realm's interface with the predictive brain.
Ashkara, the Laughing Root
[Sigil] Guardian daemon of thresholds and transformation. Works whether you see it as archetypal force or powerful metaphor. → Explore the sigil
I saw you peek in and I usually always see that as a que that you have new content. And, I always try to come see.
Lunacy and tired of it-I lay down to love you.
Short,direct,and very powerful.
I’m glad you peeked in. I always inspiration here.
Thank you!!
Thanks Shinade. Your feedback keeps me writing.
i second that emotion
it strikes me as the sentiment of someone
too broken to fight for a particular kind of love.
a selfless act perhaps?
or is it someone that enjoys love as a means to escape the world?
either way it induces a sigh in me.