you can have peace now (but you won’t want to)

The book says, “Breathe! You Are Alive.” And for once, I didn’t argue.


This morning, after feeding the kittens, I stepped barefoot into the back garden, coffee in hand, Kindle open to a quiet teaching.

The sun was already waiting—warming the stone steps, drying last night’s dew. A soft breeze moved through the grass, and Thich Nhat Hanh greeted me with the kind of invitation that sounds obvious until you actually try to live it:

“Breathe! You are alive.”

And just like that, resistance kicked in.

A voice inside me—tight, familiar, endlessly clever—rose up to protest:

“How will you get anything done?”
“That won’t help you get clients.”
“You can’t make a living just by breathing.”

There it was. The gospel of urgency. The work-ethic deity whispering its gospel in my left ear while a Zen monk pointed to the garden and said, “Just look.”

I felt the tug of both worlds: the one that wants to optimise—and the one that simply wants to be.

I let the resistance have its say. I didn’t fight it. I wrote it down in my journal like an old friend who only shows up when the kettle’s on. Then I settled back in and started listening—not to the book, but to the world.

And this is what I heard:

  • My neighbour is hammering something just over the fence.
  • A motorcycle splitting the air out front.
  • The polo ground announcer echoing from one direction, football cheers from the other.
  • An airplane overhead, moving like a thought trying to leave.
  • Baby birds are chirping somewhere in the hedgerow.
  • Bees tending to the raspberry bush without needing permission.

The moment didn’t become quiet.
But it did become clear.

Peace wasn’t the absence of noise.
It was the return to presence within it.

And beneath the hum of the world and the grumble of resistance, I felt something truer than productivity:

The sun warming my skin.
The breath returning on its own.
The simplicity of being alive without needing to earn it.


🛠 the gentle practice

When resistance shows up in your mind—when it says “You can’t live like this,” try this:

  • Don’t argue.
  • Don’t obey.
  • Just notice.
  • Write it down.
  • Breathe.
  • Then look around and name five things you can hear, see, or feel.

Let the noise remain. Let the world spin.
But remember you are not its engine. You’re its guest.


🌀 a prompt for the road

Where does your resistance to peace show up?

And what might happen if you didn’t try to overcome it…
but simply welcomed it as a visitor, then poured it some tea?


☕️ final thought

Peace won’t guarantee income.
Presence won’t solve your inbox.

But maybe those were never the right measures of a life.

You are here.
You are breathing.
And that, my friend, is already enough.

Walk slow.
Think gently.
Live well.

Wretched is the Mind

Montaigne:

We are never ‘at home’: we are always outside ourselves. Fear, desire, hope, impel us towards the future; they rob us of feelings and concerns for what now is, in order to spend time over what will be – even when ourselves shall be no more. Wretched is the mind anxious about the future.

And yet our whole society is conditioned to think this way. It’s our default position. As I read that passage, I caught myself doing exactly that – ruminating about the future. And if I’m honest with myself, my rumination was driven by all three emotions: desire, fear, and hope.

When I bring my attention to the present, the present seems lacking. I’m sat in my quiet room reading a book written by guy who has been dead for 430 years. What is glorious about the present? Is it the celebration that you’re alive? But alive to do what? Exist? Procreate? It seems as soon as I give myself a purpose or a mission or a goal, I immediately create the condition of concern for the future. Will I achieve my mission? Will I accomplish my goal? Will I live my life on purpose?

The moment I bring my mind back to the present, those things vanish. Yet somehow, there’s that little niggle in the back of my mind, poking me, reminding me that I haven’t accomplished all that I want to accomplish yet. Reminds me of the narrator in Robert Frost’s poem – Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening:

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep

And as soon as I acknowledge the voice, a dozen different tasks flood my mind, things that need to get done if I have any chance of achieving anything beyond just living in the moment. But living in the moment is meant to bring peace, a settled mind, a oneness of spirit. How can I have both, peace and ambition?

Ambition is fueld by desire. Desire implies lack. Lack induces fear. And hope keeps me hanging on in the belief that this will all work out in the end.

The acknowledged wisdom tells me that the present is exactly where we I need to be. If I spend too much time wandering around in my past reliving old glories, or too much time daydreaming about the future, then I am wasting my life.

Who do you believe? Where should one put their faith?

I know what it feels like to be fully present. It is pure joy. A joy that gets ruined the moment you say to yourself, I wish this joy could last forever, but it’s time to get back into the real world and get shit done. Otherwise, when I get to the end of the year and people start patting themselves on the back about all of the things they’ve accomplished this year, I’ll have nothing to show. All I’ll be able to say is that I lived a life of joy doing nothing but being present.