What did God do when he buried his breath in the clay?

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Maybe he made matter remember music.

Clay, before breath, is just earth with potential. Dense. Damp. Waiting. It belongs to gravity, riverbed, field, grave, brick, and vessel. But breath is movement. Breath is an invisible rhythm. Breath is spirit entering form without ceasing to be invisible.

So when God buried his breath in the clay, maybe he hid wind inside weight.

He took what falls and placed inside it something that rises.

That’s the human paradox right there: mud with a skyward ache.

Not pure spirit. Not mere animal. Not just body, not just soul. A walking contradiction. Earth that dreams. Dust that sings. Flesh that asks why. A creature made from the same stuff as the path underfoot, yet haunted by the breath of the one who walked over the waters.

And buried is the interesting word.

Not placed.

Not installed.

Not added.

Buried.

That suggests concealment. Seed-like. Tomb-like. Treasure-like.

God did not leave his breath on the surface where we could easily point to it and say, “There, that’s the divine bit.” He buried it deep. Under appetite, memory, fear, shame, longing, language, labour, and love. So the spiritual life becomes a kind of archaeology. We dig through ourselves looking for the breath that was hidden there from the beginning.

Maybe that’s why we are always listening inwardly.

Maybe prayer is not us speaking upward so much as us trying to hear the buried breath still breathing.

And because it is buried in clay, the breath is not separate from the clay. The divine does not bypass the body. It enters it. It accepts limitations. It consents to pulse, hunger, fatigue, desire, and death. God’s breath becomes intimate with lungs. With ribs. With dirt under fingernails. With the ache of being embodied.

So maybe incarnation begins earlier than Bethlehem. Maybe the first incarnation is this: breath in clay.

The body as the original chapel.

The mouth as an altar of air.

The human being as a little weather system of God.

There’s also something tender in it. To breathe into clay, God must come close. This is not a command-from-a-distance creation. It is mouth-to-mouth. Nearness. Vulnerability. Divine intimacy. The creator kneels in the dirt, shapes the form, and gives something of himself away.

And that raises the dangerous question:

Did God lose something when he breathed into us?

Or did he multiply himself?

Maybe both.

Maybe every human being is a buried fragment of divine weather, trying to remember the wind it came from.

And then the ethical turn: if God buried his breath in the clay, then every body is holy ground. Not metaphorically only. Actually. The beggar, the enemy, the lover, the stranger, the child, the ageing parent, the difficult self in the mirror: all clay carrying concealed breath.

To harm another is to strike earth where God is hidden.

To love another is to help the buried breath find air.

And perhaps this is what a life is: the slow uncovering of the breath.

We begin as clay animated by something we did not earn. Then we spend our days either hardening around it or becoming porous to it. The breath wants circulation. It wants speech, song, blessing, courage, and forgiveness. But clay dries. Clay cracks. Clay can become brick, wall, idol, or weapon.

So the work is to stay moist enough for the breath to keep shaping us.

That might be the whole spiritual practice:

Stay workable.

Stay close to water.

Do not become too finished.

Because God buried breath in clay, not marble.

The human is not a statue.

The human is still being shaped.

a letter to god

Dear God,

I just realized it’s your son’s birthday next week. I thought it would be a good time to drop you a line. How long has it been since we last spoke? It’s got to be at least 2,500 years or so. Time flies doesn’t it? I can imagine, being a deity and all, that 2,500 years is probably like a blink of an eye for you. Well for us mortals, it’s a mighty long time not to talk to someone.

We used to have some good times didn’t we? My favorite times were when we used to hang out in the Garden and watch the sun set over Paradise, while the Holy Ghost strummed tunes on his acoustic guitar and Sophia sand us lullabies. I used to love to listen to you tell us stories about the Universe and how you traveled around in the void creating weird and wonderful things. I cried when you told us how lonely you used to get traveling around the Multiverse all by yourself. And then you created us to keep you company. I am glad you did. If haven’t said it before, I’ll say it now, thanks you.

Look, I know we kind of upset you with that whole Tree of Knowledge thing. I’ve lost count of how many times Eve has said she’s sorry. She blames herself for the whole thing. I keep telling her it was all of our fault, and that we’re all sorry for what we did. I am a little puzzled though as to why you kicked us out of the Garden permanently. I mean really how long are you going to stay mad at us for that? Don’t you think it’s time we kissed and made up? There’s a lot of people suffering down here, and we could really use your help to sort things out.

Hey you know what we should do? We should throw a great big barbeque in the Garden. We could invite everybody – Christians, Jews, Muslims, Hindus, Buddhists, Pagans and whoever else we can think of. We could have a real slap up. Oh and while we’re talking about forgiveness, you could even invite all the Fallen Angels and we could all kiss and make up. With your powers, that should be an easy thing to do. What do you say?

One last thing, there are lost of rumors going around that you’ve gone off to some distant corner of the universe and have forgotten all about us. There are even some people who say you don’t exist and never did. You can’t blame them really. They weren’t around back in the day when you were happy to visibly walk amongst men. It would be nice if you could come back, even if you just stop by for a century or two just to let us know you’re alive and well.

That’s it from me. Tell Jesus I said happy birthday, and give Sophia my regards. I look forward to hearing from you soon.

Peace and love,
Me

P.S. Please send me some pictures of Paradise. I’m making a little scrapbook for mankind.