May 2020

May 28, 2020

Look at me, I’m Gordon Gekko

Being everywhere at once is an appropriated style I adopted from the speed freaks of the Gordon Gekko generation. Everybody wants everything at once. I don’t have time, they chant. I’m busy, they say. Busy doing what? Everybody’s busy. Everybody is busy being busy. And if you’re not busy, you’re...

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May 27, 2020


I cannot escape the stranglehold of words. To be able to use language like an alchemist mixing chemical concoctions that play with the mind, well now that just turns me on to no end. Words are sexy. I’ve been learning about the sentence and even though I have been writing...

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May 26, 2020


Existence is suffering.Existence is painExistence is timeExistence is purposeExistence is immediateExistence is perfectExistence is reasonExistence is problematicExistence is exoticExistence is mysteriousExistence is meExistence is godExistence is beautifulExistence is mindExistence is unnecessaryExistence is lameExistence is resistanceExistence is futileExistence is eternalExistence is essenceExistence is temporaryExistence is struggleExistence is everythingExistence is ironicExistence is...

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May 23, 2020

Even monsters need to eat

Everybody keeps going on about returning back to normal as if we could carry on living our lives the same way before the pandemic struck. I don’t want to find my way back to normal. I was already tired of the ‘image is everything’ culture we’d been sold through the...

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May 18, 2020

When ignorance is wise

By changing the chemical and electrical activity in their large brains, they argued that as a species, they had fallen victim to evolutionary success. Others worried. They worried that besides the relentless pursuit of pleasure, they had forged sad habits and an ethos that would lead to a good life....

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May 15, 2020

Better to rule in Hell

Just in case you read this God, I don’t really mean that. I mean serving in Heaven has its appeal too. And one day my broken tooth will fall out and I’ll be able to eat meat again like a lion instead of gumming it to death like a toothless...

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May 14, 2020

Setting myself on fire

Uncertainty gives rise to anxiety, both intensify depending on how much time we spend dwelling in the future imagining, most likely, all of the things that could go wrong. The body, of course, responds as if those bad things are happening now, in the present. I’m infamous, amongst my friends,...

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May 7, 2020

VE Day 75

Yesterday I was knee deep in video editing. I’m working on a tribute video for VE Day which is this Friday.   This year is the 75th anniversary of VE Day – the moment the guns across Europe fell silent and the war with Nazi Germany ended. The official end...

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