October 2019

October 30, 2019

Always at night

I was in a strange and vengeful mood. It had been a long hard day, and on nights like these, I am aweful to be around.  

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October 29, 2019

Just another cookie monster

Who’s obsessed with pinball? I used to be back in the day. I picked up the habit up from my Aunt Valerie who was super obsessed with the game. She used to drag me along to the corner shop and play for hours (or at least seemed like hours for...

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October 27, 2019

a little taste of adventure close to home

I felt compelled to stay up late watching 80s videos. So many teenage memories flooded through my half-baked brain. Not such a great idea when you’re on the backside of 50 wondering where all the time went. Watching these videos reminded me of time when all I wanted to do...

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October 26, 2019

Ah just like the old days

1 I love the momentum that’s being regained by the personal blogging genre. 2 I’m working on forming new habits with the Internet. The last couple of day i’ve spent the majority of my day re-wiring my blog to IndieWeb standards, which has meant a lot of reading about the...

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October 26, 2019

Pursue more friendships. That’s going right on my vision board. I’d hate to be nearing the end and wishing I’d done so when I had the chance.   h/t theguardian.com

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October 25, 2019

The place is a mess

Well the house officially looks like a disaster area. We had to empty of bedroom to make space for our ne wardrobe to be fitted. It’s crazy how much stuff we have crammed in our room. Well all that stuff is now spread out all over the house. The only...

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October 24, 2019

Mirror tests

Being conscious and being self-aware differ on the capacity for introspection. I can be aware of my body and the environment around me, but am I aware of my awareness? Interesting piece from Virginia Morrell @virginiamorrell on @aeon What do mirror tests test?

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October 22, 2019

Damned if I do; damned if I don’t

Meriel Swain asked the question, “What will your epilogue say?” I paused for a second to reflect on her question, but all I could come up with this “His name was Clay. He played the game well enough to have more good days than bad days .” That’s all I...

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October 21, 2019

The real reason I’m a blogger

I played PUBG with Jeremy last night. It’s been 142 days since I last played. 1) where does the time go? 2) Shows you how much of a gamer I am!???? I like games, but always feel guilty if i whittle away hours playing them. In my head, I keep...

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October 19, 2019

Panicked indifference

My mother belongs to the fear I was needing, interlocking arms with white bags. Today has everything I need – wet clothes, pillowcases, liquor, eyelashes, and chemicals. Excuse the scars. Ducking, jumping, terrible things I was mid-air like a heavy meal. You save people too scared to fall from the...

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October 18, 2019

Lost in the woods

Admiral McRaven has put into words what has been on mind and spirit for the past three and butt years. America has lost its way because the leaders of the country have lost their way and have lost sight of America’s values and what we stand for as a Nation....

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October 17, 2019

Jesse’s Endgame

I finally watched El Camino last night, and seeing how Breaking Bad was one of my all time favourite TV series, I had high hopes for the movie. You can probably guess from my intro that it fell short of what I was expecting. Instead of a movie, we got...

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October 16, 2019

One of these seconds

I often wonder about nothing; Sometimes I wonder about something, but mostly i just wonder about Hell and my place in it or on it if Hell is Earth and other people Worlds within worlds within worlds. Worlds come and go. Four births happen each second of every day and...

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October 14, 2019

And nothing even blew up!

America’s digital goddess has been around since the beginning of the personal computer revolution. Her she is in 1990s explaining what a computer is. I know, hard to imagine a time without a computer! By the way America’s digital goddess aka Kim Kamando is still at. She host a radio...

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October 13, 2019

My postmodern sex goddess

Giving Aphrodite a run for her rubies would have been easy for you, you are, after all, a postmodern sex goddess. I tried to penetrate the day, but the hours skipped ahead somehow removed from where we sat watching reruns of the Real World. I thought about Puck. Where did...

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October 12, 2019

It’s the Puritan in us

“The most important thing in life is not happiness but meaning.” — John M. Hull, Notes on Blindness 1 Fun. I like the word fun. Who’s having fun today? Are you having fun today? Do you have enough fun in your life or could you use a little more? I...

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October 10, 2019

My Shadow poked me in the eye and snickered

1 The route to Hell is a well-lived life. I dreamt I was throwing a fish fry. As I prepped for the fish fry, there was a shadowy female presence helping me out. A Shadow in a dream can represent something unknown or unseen about yourself, a sort of a...

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October 8, 2019

What goes on must go on

1 I’ve been in a kind of holding pattern over the last several days as I process all the words I’ve been reading about content curation and blogging and the state of blogging in general. I’m gearing up of course for another crack at this blogging thing as a central...

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October 4, 2019

The Joker doing his joker thing and causing deep unease

Looks like the new Joker movie has opened to some controversy: But “Joker” is also causing deep unease. Some people, including a few rank-and-file employees on the Warner Bros. lot, worry that the violent, hyper-realistic movie is potentially dangerous — that rather than critiquing the societal failings that have given...

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